Monday, May 26, 2014

My thoughts....

It is ridiculous how these school system is NOT doing any background check on those who are suppose to be teachers.It irritates me so much how these "so -call" teachers are going after students like they are THEIR age. FYI: These are children...CHILDREN! All they need is guidance and education so they can get ready for life and career down the road. Even there are children who has issues with learning like dyslexia; there are teachers who do not know how to work with children with learning disability. There would be times when teachers are not patient with a child who is going through a learning disability or just issues at home. These teachers need to go back to school, themselves who need to learn how to be more patient with a student.
Would you believe that I had dyslexia? Believe it. This same person who is an author and a blogger had dyslexia. I had to deal with teachers would was not patient with me and had the nerve to talk about me like I do not have emotions. Or as stupid people would say in the 90's about kids, "They will bounce back. They will be okay." To this very day, I still remember this teacher had screamed in my face because she was really impatient with me. Honestly, math was never my easy subject. But when you have a teacher yell in your face or humiliate you in front of the class because they never like you; it make you seriously want to tell the school principal to get you another teacher. As the scripture in 2 Tim.3:1-5 states: " In last days, critical times hard to deal with will be here...unthankful, disloyal, having no natural affection....."It shows that we are living in a time where people has a lack of affection towards a child, an elderly person and anything that is precious in God's eyes. People are getting hurt everyday including children. And it is getting more and more difficult to trust an actual learning institution for the child without the child is being mistreated or being raped by a low-life "so called" teacher. There would be even times when the teacher would lie on the student (On Purpose) so the kid can get in trouble with the parent.These teachers do not even know if the child is in an abusive home so for a child it is hard to trust an adult figure.
Based on my learning disability, through the school they were able to provide me a tutor. My own mother did not care if I had a tutor because she did not make the effort herself to find me a tutor so I can pass the class. Honestly, you do not need drugs to help a child with dyslexia. Teachers need patience regarding teaching a child. Parents need to do more to get involve in their child's education by sneaking up to the school when the teacher does not expect you to be there. Parents need to do more to see how the teacher is treating their child. As a parent, we left our child with you so you can teach our child the ABC's and 123's.
NOT dating them, NOT disciplining them-that is OUR job to discipline our child NOT YOU. Parents need to do more to get involve in their child's education not drop them off at the school's doorsteps...and that's it. It is more than that. It is time to help our children and continue to stand our ground against teachers who is WAY out of line. Anyways, until next time...
This book "A Long Journey to Home" by Samantha Crystal is and encouraging book that has a combination of poems and stories behind each pieces that will make you laugh, cry, & make you think. The message I am bringing to the people's attention: "There IS life after abuse." It is always possible. This inspired book is
available online through Amazon, Barns & Nobles, xlibris.com/bookstore and 2800 online bookstores nationwide. PICK UP A COPY TODAY!!! ENJOY!

Saturday, May 17, 2014

1,2, breathe..

       There is a moment in your life when you have to face your fears so you
can get to that peaceful place in  your life. It may be scary at first because 
you do not want to go back to that traumatic past that had claimed your 
innocence...your childhood. It did not hit until yesterday (for me); it was 
while I was talking to my counselor about the issues I had dealt as a child-
dealing with abuse at home, peers & bullies at school and the struggles of 
my faith. To those who had a normal childhood: You need to understand 
the fact that even though, it has been nineteen years since that person who 
had happened to be my step father(the man whom mother decided to marry 
while he was in prison) was locked up and then had to deal 
with the attack from my own sister in 2008. Survivors and victim (such as 
myself) had to still deal with the flashbacks, the anger, the resentment, and 
trust. It is really hard to trust people after the aftermath is over but will try to 
find love as I had become an adult-some in the right and wrong places.
        Not to mention, the abuse from people who I was looking up to as family but 
then I was desperately looking for love in all the wrong places. Wanted to be 
loved so bad..it was so bad I was looking for that "unavailable" love. Basically,
it is that love that you did not receive from home but also in "so called " relationships.
I thought I was being loved by these guys who had said they love me but they was not
available emotionally and mentally which lead them to use me. I have to say: It really 
hurt so bad when you thought you were with the right person even after you had told 
these people the trials you had experienced while growing up. There were even moments
when I had remember what my own sister had said to me while flaunting in my face how 
many guys had paid any attention to her , "Who will want you? No one want you, you just an 
anti-social."
        The reason for thee blogs was to educate the public and let those who had been victimized
that there is LIFE after abuse. Believe me with my faith in Jehovah God (his name is proven in psalms 83:18-check it out in your bible or look it up), it had lead me to a more
peaceful life without those toxic people- those who had faked their apologies but then retract back 
to their negative attitude. It is better for me to love these people (my mother and sister) from a distance. 
These are the same people that had threw back in my face about the childhood abuse it had inflicted on me 
and was using favoritism-basically oust me out like I was the black sheep of the family. (That is another story in itself) When people tend to think, " Why don't you "get over" it?" FYI: It takes some time you need 
to understand that even though (for me) its nineteen years and I still dealing with the anger and flashbacks
from being mistreated including being misunderstood as a person. That it is why it is so much better for 
victims like myself to start writing, talk to a therapist/counselors and continue to encourage others to SPEAK UP.It takes prayer & faith to continue on living a normal life including having hope for the future that 
all this will be a thing in the past. It just takes faith. 
          Anyways, until next time.... 

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

A Long Journey to Home Is Available NOW!!!

The reason for this book is to give the voice back to
the voiceless and have people start breaking the "silent code"
or "Whatever happens in this house, stays in this house." I got
really tires to hear people who want to cover up the issue about
child abuse. Something in me had snapped because I was a victim
child abuse including domestic violence, abandonment...you name it
including homelessness. Plus to educate the public on how to treat
those who are victims/survivors of abuse and domestic violence.
       After being attacked by a sibling (who happened to live in Chicago)
in 2008, I REALLY snapped. But it gave me a second chance to live. I
wanted to use my story to share with the world and not the world to feel
sorry for me. BUT to consider my story to be encouraging. It takes faith
to endure what I had endured for a long time. It just irks me so much how
people give their own "ignorant" opinion about a victim that was raped or
molested. People like that I feel sorry for because it just show their actual
"knowledge" to that subject....They HAVE NONE. There have been victims
like myself who had heard some ignorant comments by ignorant people. But
they do not know it causes more anger and trauma to the victims and survivors.
     That is why I want you to pick up the book "A Long Journey to Home" TODAY!
It is available nationwide on amazon, barns and nobles. xlibris.com/bookstore and 2800
online bookstores nationwide. So PICK UP THE BOOK TODAY!!! Spread the WORD!